10 years ago today, my sons heart stopped beating.
I was rushed to hospital in the back of an ambulance, having woken to find, what turned out to be his cord had prolapsed. I had been released from the hospital just a few days before after experiencing pPROM.
He was still alive when we entered triage at 7.30am but was already dead when they scanned me for the first time at 10:45am.
I lay there in a side room on my own, on my back holding on to that cord for 6 hours until they decided to start induction.
Every year is always difficult. The build up is usually worse than the day itself, but this year the weight feels heavier than ever.
I class tomorrow as his official ‘birthday’ as he was born on the 3rd at 5:48am but this year it felt right to also acknowledge how significant today is and has always been.
10 years ago today, my first born, long tried for son Bobby died. And 10 years on, I still grieve, I still wish, I still love, I still remember and I still wonder. 💙
#pregnancyandinfantloss #bobbyfranks #angelversary #10thanniversary
Our fourth set of RAOK butterfly packs have been made and are ready to be hidden from the 1st of July.
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Thank you to Arlos Nanny Chris for the photo of the butterflies which will be hidden around Billingshurst and up and down the Arun Valley train line.
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These butterflies are in memory of:
Arlo, Naveah Ray, Megan, Theo Gabriel, Alexis Rose, Liam Nicco, Kai William Mack, Lilly-May, Payton Sawyer, Taryn Riley, Natalie, Zain, Alexa Marie Ovalle, Carter, Bennett, Olivia, Ava-Marie and Oliver James
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#ubwraok2019
